|Our Vine and Branches|
I think I had two problems: one was that I was focused on the negative, and the other was that I felt that if only I gritted my teeth hard enough, I could succeed at Lent.
But I couldn't just will myself to be holy! I was thinking of "getting closer to God" as making myself more like God, a better person.
Now I see "getting closer to God" more like the way I see "getting closer to" my Mom and Dad, or my kids, or my husband.
|This Year's Walking with Jesus Poster|
Lent became about spending more time with God, getting to know Him better, and setting aside some things to make more space for Him in my life.
The funny thing is that it probably looks the same from the outside!
|Our Lent Altar|
I mean, I still give up sweets and snacks, still pray more, and do more spiritual reading. But now they are just ways to spend more time and energy with someone I love.
|Fruit on a branch already!|
Now, it doesn't bother me. God already knows I'm not perfect!
It's been a (very!) gradual change in attitude, but now I look forward to Lent.
|Pretzels in the cookie jar|
It's not that I don't want my life to always center around the Lord - I really do! But, without a concentrated effort, I am always slipping back to my old ways of thinking and deciding things.
Each Lent I am changed a bit more: giving the Lord a little room does that.
And now Lent is a very happy time for me!